Poems by Heidi Ravina

Nobody

Something is missing
I fail to explain
My heart, it feels different
Everyone seems the same
You have your jocks and your preppies
Your freaks and your geeks
Every one of them
Seem to know what they need
Not one single friend 
Seems to need me.
A cherry pop princess
Thugs and Ghetto fabs
Nobody understands me
I don’t fit those fads.
They say that they know me
That they hear all my thoughts
He says that he loves me 
Does he see me at all?
Maybe I am common 
Maybe I am weak
To fear all these things
And secrets I keep
Somehow I don’t know
Just what this life means
Look out this window 
It leads to my soul
It will show you 
What you need to know

Snowflake

Just the other day passing by
I think I saw your face the second time
In and out of my life
Like the doorstep that I am
Now that I have read between the lines
Cried on with the rain
Broken heart the second time
I will never be the same
Now is not the time
To let myself explain
You let them take us over
for that I feel the pain
Looking for some comfort 
searching for the day
Someone who will love me 
With them I will stay
I'm hopelessly devoted 
These strings did prop me up
To you i gave my whole heart
My mind, my soul, my love
I'm walking on the freeway
Crying in the sun
Walking from the storm cloud
Far from anyone
You took so many feelings
From the me I thought I was
and now I stand alone
no one left to love
Took my old ex from me
He probably would've stayed 
But I kind of felt
I wanted it that way 
Serene like Brooklyn
In a city full of gray
I'll let my tree grow on
Though they stole my heart away
Same old story
I couldn't just admit
I knew he'd leave me
Before I'd think of leaving him
Gave up on the mountain
He tried so hard to climb
I watch him fall down it
He'd 've made it to the sky
You got what you came for 
And now you fall away
I wish that you
Only would've stayed
I thought you loved me
I guess i didn't know
I was just another
Snowflake in the snow.

Cries of Pity

covered in darkness
buried in clay
trying to conceive
the right words to say
sinking in quicksand 
with each word I speak
finding myself
so incredibly weak
coals of fire leave my eyes
I'll pretend that I'm just fine
Cry for pity
plea for peace
Let me go
I need release
Take my heart
stab my back
Laugh it off like
nothing's wrong with that
I'm standing here
Back down on my knees
I see so clear
Do you see me?
Trying to find
My place in the crowd
Just one face 
that hears me out
I can't fight the sickness
It's much too strong
All this self pity
and nothing else wrong 
You gave me a chance 
and I threw it away
So I guess now I 
Deserve to pay.

Forgotten

Eye in eye we ponder
In a silence that we share
I pretend to wonder
And you pretend to care
Deeply in your eyes
I can read your thoughts
You have just erased 
All the morals you've been taught
Blow me a kiss at midnight
cuz I know this means farewell
If this moment could last forever
Then forever I'd be well
My heart is beating faster
By the rhythm of the clock
And now, well I feel silly
I see my future being mocked
In your eye I know 
That you don't mimick me
But I feel so far away
With no you, I am lonely
Tell me where you're going
Take me where you've been
send me on not knowing
that I have been forgotten.

-Heidi